| The solitary and uncompromisingly
clever novelist tells Helen Brown she is trying to re-trieve the Bible from
stupidity.
Everything about Jenny Diski is crisply cut. The
sentences, the hair, the amount of time
she is prepared to spare. As she opens her front door to me, I feel the shambolic
drift of a Cambridge afternoon repelled by her blunt forcefield. Stepping
into her smart, right-angled terrace house, I ask if she would
like me to take my
boots off. She looks faintly appalled, as if I’ve offered to strip naked
on the doormat. "Why would you want to do that?" I’m about to
speak of mud and her very tidy house, but it occurs to me that Diski might prefer
the impersonality of street dirt on her polished wooden floors to any particles
of my individual human skin invading her home. She
has written often and probingly
about her discomfort around people. Cats, she gets. Diski feels honoured,
awed, even - by the relationship she is privileged to share with her pets,
relish-ing
both the simple physical contact and the bridging of inter-species psyches.
But she has been mainly unable to translate that state of awareness to
her contact
with her own kind. In her award-winning travel memoir, Stranger on a Train,
she explains that: "What I experience with most people is my estrangement
from them, the distance of mutually unique separation that words or touch
never quite
bridge. Unlike cats, people interfere with my apprehension of reality,
they muddy how I can know myself, confuse my understanding of how I am,
which is centred
around the notion that solitude is a state of perfection."
She knows what
the psychologists would say about that. They would direct her back to a painful
childhood dominated by a hysterical mother, while the young Jenny craved only
the love of the conman father who walked out when she was a girl. Analysts would
- and have - invited Diski to talk about the early institutionalisations. Her
expulsion from school. Her suicide attempts. The crystal meth - in medical and "recreational" contexts.
The period during which she was fostered by Doris Lessing (they now have an agreement
not to discuss each other publicly). The pecu-liarly binding attachments formed
on mental health wards. Sex. Motherhood. The "scratchy feeling" that
compels her to write. The mild scandal of her first novel, about a sadomasochistic
relationship. The fear of attachment and rejection… But Diski has given
up on therapy and, she has said, it has given up on her. That’s just who
she is, how she is. Capisce? Coffee?
As I sit (probably too close) to this uncompromisingly
clever writer on her sunlit sofa, I do not ask much about her past. She’s
already published what she feels (and doesn’t feel) about that in her
books. And while Diski is entirely in command of this awkward interviewing
situation
("Interview me, then"), I am intensely aware of skirting the radioactive
sense of restrained emotion she emits. Her manner is at once businesslike
and anarchically offhand. We laugh. She’s funny. She reminds me of
a grieving friend who once said: "Don’t you dare touch me, because
if you do I’ll cry, and one thing I already know is that crying doesn’t
help." So,
crisply, as I sip my coffee, we discuss her excellent ninth novel, After
These Things, a reinterpretation of the biblical lives of Isaac, Jacob
and his weak-eyed
wife Leah. She had tackled Abraham in Only Human (2000) and usually moves
on fairly briskly after each book. Yet this time she felt compelled to take
on the
story and polish off the patriarchs. "
I had absolutely no interest in
the Bible as a child," she says. "My parents were pretty secular
Jews. I remember Passover in Hebrew. My father read it, but he didn’t
understand a word. I remember the stories from Ladybird books quite well
because of the
hideous pictures of people with towels on their heads. The colours were incredibly
memorable." She believes that the stories of the Bible "only get
good when you read them as an adult. Samson is such a static story when you
read it
as a kid, but as an adult I find him much more interesting. I mean, he’s
just a klutz, the town yob, the Bible’s Schwarzenegger. He does everything
wrong and is always in trouble. Just an ordinary bloke who’s been promised
to God."
Beyond character, Diski was drawn to the patterns of the Hebrew
Bible. "I was intrigued about it as a narrative, put together from three
strands of writing and edited into a single text by Ezra. Some people say
that’s
why you get repetitions. Other people say you get repetitions because it’s
a work of art with a beat to it. I was interested in it as an edited work… the
essence of all novel writing is editing."
In Diski’s work, the
editing is right there on the surface. Is God an editor, she asks in After
These Things,
or do we edit God as we go along? Do we edit our own lives as a linear process
or do we pivot unto death around one self-defining moment, like Abraham and
Isaac on the moun-taintop? She shuffles and deals chronology with the cards
face up.
Let’s not be coy, she seems to be saying, about the fact that none
of this really makes any sense. Yet because she doesn’t see much connection
between reading and writing, Diski admits to enjoying a "rattling good
tale", although she prefers it on television. And once we move on to
the subject of cinema, she talks of directors who subvert linear expectation. "I
love Tarantino’s films. I loved the total nothingness of Kill Bill.
It was just one damn thing after another. I laughed a lot. It’s morally
empty and I can appreciate that. Although I feel slightly guilty about it,
the way
I feel guilty for finding Nabokov a great writer. There’s something
cold there that I seek and respond to."
Didn’t she feel any sense
of guilt, as a non-believer, about messing with a sacred text? Was she trespassing
on other
people’s territory? "If it’s all right for the rabbis to
reinterpret it, it’s all right for me. Books are available for us to
play with. I wanted to retrieve the Bible from stupid-ity, to take it back
as an essentially human
story."
After These Things is impeccably human. After his father has
shown he’s willing to sacrifice him, Isaac’s life is all blind
appetite. His tricksy younger son Jacob echoes "like an empty jar".
Neither man experiences God as directly as Abraham, shortchanged instead
with dreams and
doubt. In Diski’s cool prose, they are each locked into a hypnotic
formal dance around their frustrations. "I am moved by them all as characters," she
says. "I don’t think things are interest-ing unless they have
an emotional component. It’s just that when I write I don’t writhe
around in the emotions. And Leah? I think the notion of the unloved - unlovable
- individual
is a powerful and painful idea. The terror of that… that there was
nothing she could have done. That seems very much like life to me."
We
laugh. I like Diski. Her frankness. For a moment, I really want her to like
me too. And
then I spill coffee on her dead-square rug. Another line blurred, a thread
corrupted, an encounter spoiled. Just another clumsy invasion of Diski’s
perfect solitude. "It
doesn’t matter," she says, as I run for a cloth.
'After
These Things' is published by Little, Brown
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